The Girl I Know

She once feel these kind of feeling
Desperation, not confidence, and lost
Where no one want to help but not really helping
Where life seems dark to her
That was years ago
When the whole boy in the school tease her and called her ugly
Everyday she couldn't face the crowd
Everyday she passed the school yard with the head down
Everyday she believed that no man would love her
Everyday she screamed for help but no one was listening, or had the courage to help her
Everyday she hoped that there was just one guy that would help her and stand for her. One was enough for her.
But no one did that for her.
Everyday she tried to stay strong, to stand in her feet.
Because she knew no one will back her up
Not even her parents or people that she loved
So she became stronger. At least strong enough to just live the day
But she grow believing that she is not worthy
And She grow with the fake confidence that she put in her face everyday
She is still standing in her feet until now.
Put a smile everyday like she has the full confidence.
Convincing people that she is a happy girl and enjoying the life.
Ignoring her own soul which getting broken everyday.
She is the strongest and the weakest girl I've ever known.
Strong ..
Because she is able to live the day with all the bully and trauma that she received.
Weak ..
Because she fail to convince herself that she is worthy and beautiful enough to ignore all those negative opinions about her.

Photo Credit :
Taken by @r_amalina (Instagram)
Edited by 비빈