You and Him

you can't go anywhere
even you wanna run
you can't even walk
you just stay ..
And feeling the pain ..

You can't scream ..
Even your lungs is about to explode
You can't talk ..
Even your brain is full of words
You just keep silent ..
And feeling the pain ..

You can cry
As much as you want to ..
As loud as you want to ..
But your lungs is still want to explode
Your body is still shaking
And you can still feel the pain ..

You can think as hard as you want
When you able to talk, you can talk to everybody ..
But the pain is still stay in your body
You won't find any solution
All you can do is feeling all the pain and keep it inside your body

You can watch him as many as you can
He talk to you whatever he wants
You can happy as much as you can when see and talk to him
But the pain is still stay in your body after he's gone
After your eyes can't find his figure
And the happiness is just gone as fast as he walk away from you

You can be happy whenever he talks to you
You can laugh and smile when you see him
Even your friend said that you looks so happy at that time
But the pain will find you again when he's just staring at you and walk away without saying "Hi"


Pain ..
I'm talking a lot about the pain ..
Pain which you can't heal even you go to the best doctor ..
To your best friends
To every single people in this world ..
Except him ..
But he won't heal it for you ..
Because the pain is when you realize that " He won't love you "
" He is waiting for someone else "
" He'll walk away and stay away from you when realize that you have a feeling for him "
" Every thing and every feeling that you have is just a waste "

The pain makes you can't focus with everything
You lose all your dreams and target ..
You forget about something called " Hope"
You completely lost
And your life is screwing up


Your friends said that you should enjoy your feeling now
because Falling in Love is a gift
But How about my pain?
How can I handle it?
What if my body and my mind can't take it anymore ..
Should I killing my feeling?
And close my heart for forever?
Because every kind of woman and man relationship never goes well in my life
It just scratch my heart

My Dream Employer

When I'm in senior high school in senior year. Many people start to wonder what major that we would take in the university. It also happens to me, I'm thinking and thinking hard about what I wanted to learn in the future, what is my passion, what I wanted to be for my work. But it's quite hard for me to find the answer since I still didn't know what I wanted to and what I'm good at.
And Super Junior give me an inspiration since I can't watch them on stage live because I'm not a rich girl who can buy the ticket so it become a motivation for me to be a promotor of Super Show, to work professionally with them. It become my biggest dream since then. So That's why I chose Communication Science major in my college to help me to reach it. So please guys, help and support me to in this competition and also my dream by liking this photo on facebook.

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