He Taught Me

He makes me fall in love
He taught me the inner happiness when I was able to make him smile
He taught me the sadness when he built a wall between me and him
He taught me the desperate and longing feelings when I tried to make everything work again between us but he didn't want it
He taught me the jealousy when he treated everyone so nice with all his heart while he ignored me and pushed me away
He taught me how to let go and find my own peace by hurting, ignoring, and treating me as he wants
He taught me how to forgive even he might not deserve it
He taught me how to act cool when I'm brokenhearted
Because of him, I make myself okay when it suppose to be not okay

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But do you realize the irony?

You realize and try to make everything when I can't even see your existence anymore, when everything is just virtual.

I might be okay and cool today, but don't blame if I'm in doubt in the next day.

Because I'm in the dark right now, I can't make sure your sincerity

I can't really feel your sincerity because everything is just virtual ...