Missing at Heart

She's strong and she wants to be stronger day by day
Because she wants to be able to accompany and support him even in his hard times
She's thousand miles away from him and she's missing him so much
But she doesn't dare to tell him the truth
So she always slipped that word between her jokes to cover the true intention
She really wants to call or do video call with him
But she doesn't dare to ask
Because she knows that he doesn't love her yet
Because she afraid if he knows that she still love him, he won't contact him anymore
So she secretly listen his voice note over and over again whenever he send it to her
And after that she smile because she feel grateful that he still wants to left traces of his real existence for her
Her friends tell her to let go of him and just move on
Her friends say since he thousand miles away so it will be easier to move on
But she would rather to feel the pain of missing him than lose him
She thinks that it would be easier to keep the feeling rather than get rid of it

So she starts to learn
to learn how to manage her missing feeling
Manage to just keep it in her heart
So he won't be annoy with it
So he won't feel uncomfortable with her feeling and willing to talk to her as a friend
She will keep it in her heart
Until the day when he finally love her comes
Until the day when he finally say to her, "I miss you"
She doesn't know whether that day will comes or not
She doesn't know how to make that day comes to her
She is now walking in the dark path without light
But she believe that the light will shows up one day
And she willing to wait