Dear, My Greatest Best Friend in My World

He's the one who said that I'm a good girl
He's the one who allow me to be myself, the real me without without faking anything
He's the one who come to men I'm in a bad mood feeling and asking what's happen with me
He's the one who said that I shouldn't be galau
He's the one who gave me a happy mask and told me to see that mask whenever I feel sad, so I can laugh and be happy again
He's the one who said "fighting girls :)" and "everything will be okay"
He's the one who joking with me a lot and make me feel better
He's the one who sharing with me a lot
He's the one who show and teach me Taekwondo's moves
He's the one who has two dimples and make him gemas
He's the narcissistic one
He's the one who proud of himself and said that he's amazing
I will miss him a lot when he's gone
I will miss his voice
Let's meet again in the future as successful person
Let's meet again in the future as happy people
Let's meet again in the future and talk a lot
Thank you for becoming a very great amazing and awesome best friend in this short time
Thank you for understanding me and becoming a precious friend
I really don't want to let you go but sadly I have to
It's not like you went to Bali and came back after a week, so how can I'm not crying?
So I will miss you a lot, a lot dear my best friend Do Tuan Anh
Have a happy life and be an awesome man in the future
Don't miss me ;-)

:'(
:')

Hai ... Kamu :)

Kenapa aku mengizinkanmu masuk ke dalam hidupku
Dan kenapa kau memberikanku kesan yang salah
Kenapa kau membuatku terkesan
Kenapa kau membuatku berharap
Kenapa aku menyukaimu?
Kenapa aku ingin mencintaimu?
Di saat kau sendiri telah ditetapkan dan dimiliki perempuan lain
Di saat ada perempuan lain yang akan mencintaimu

Hai kamu ..
Because I already become so bold these days
Then let me say something
Let me enjoy my feeling right now
Let me like and love you maybe
And be calm ..
I won't disturb you because of this feeling
And because we maybe won't meet again after this end
And we will have our own world like we never meet before
And maybe by the time goes on, I slowly will forget you and forget this feeling

Kakak ..

Hai Kakak, gimana kabarnya?
Gimana kondisi Kakak hari ini?
Gimana mood Kakak hari ini?
Aku berharap Kakak baik-baik aja. Aku berharap Kakak selalu bisa bermain lepas dan bahagia. Jangan stres ya Kak. Meskipun Kakak gak nunjukin ke aku, tapi aku tahu kalau masa-masa ini berat buat Kakak, tapi aku juga tahu kalau Kakak pribadi yang sangat tangguh.
Kakak kalau aku diizinkan untuk bercerita, bolehkah aku berkata bahwa akhir-akhir ini merupakan hari yang berat dan penuh tantangan bagiku?
Maafkan aku Kak kalau adikmu ini masih memiliki jiwa anak kecil dan tukang mengeluh. Maafkan aku karena ada begitu banyak hal yang masih belum bisa kukerjakan seorang diri.
Tapi aku yakin kok kalau ini akan menjadi sebuah proses pendewasaan buat adik kecilmu ini. Boleh kan sekali-sekali aku kepedean dan menganggap bahwa aku adalah adikmu? Aku tidak akan melakukannya sering-sering kok, karena aku tahu itu tidak bisa.
Kelelahan dan kesibukan yang aku jalani sekarang sebenarnya menyenangkan kok Kak karena diperjalanan ini aku bertemu kembali dan menemukan orang-orang yang kucintai lagi. Orang-orang yang selalu kurindukan dan mampu menyayangiku serta mendukungku untuk menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik. Meskipun sampai detik ini aku belum menemukan orang yang mampu mencintaiku sebagai seorang perempuan.
Doakan aku ya Kak supaya aku bisa menjadi adik yang mampu tumbuh menjadi pribadi yang bahagia dan sukses di masa depan. Dan seperti yang selalu kukatakan padamu, aku selalu mendukungmu dan mendoakan kebahagiaanmu.

You Know That I'll Always Support You Right? ;-)

Everbody have their own problems, have their own mistakes, and have their own hard times.
I know and I hope that you always do the best in everything you do.
I know that you won't read every single thing that I wrote for you but I know that you understand how much I care for you.
I always want you to be happy, that's what I always want since the first time we met.
I believe that you'll meet your happiness in every single way you take like I believe that in myself.
I know that we will survive in every hard times we meet in our way.
I know that our roads are completely different but I hope that it still can connect us in every possible and impossible way.
I did many impossible things that I don't even think I can do since I met you.
I did many silly things in front of you but you respect me in that way and I'm really thankful for that.
So .. Yeah .. Like I always said to you that I'll support you wherever you are.
So even I always wonder what's your next step, What kind of challenges that you'll take ..
One thing that I can sure, whatever it is. It might be the best road that you take

So ... What is your next journey Kak? :-)

Kamu. Yang Tidak Akan Kutemui Lagi

Mengapa hati berdebar saat mengingatmu?
Mengapa rasanya tak cukup tuk sekedar mengagumi gambaran parasmu?
Tak pernah puas dan bosan saat membaca setiap rangkaian pemikiranmu
Tak pernah cukup rasanya hanya saling bertukar sapa
Ingin rasanya selalu memandang senyumanmu
Inginku mendengar dan merekam suaramu
Inginku merasa dan mendengar debar jantungmu dan jantungku saat kita bertemu lagi
Inginku mengenalmu
Dan mengenalmu
Kemudian mengenalmu lagi
Selalu dan terus menerus mengenalmu
Karena diri ini tak pernah puas bila itu mengenai segala sesuatu tentangmu
Apa takdir ini akan menuntun kita berdua tuk kembali berpijak di jalan yang sama di waktu yang bersamaan pula?
Namun ku meragu peruntunganku tak mengizinkanku tuk kembali bertemu denganmu
Dan merasa takut takdir tak mengizinkannya pula

Hai, kau yang tak pernah kutemui lagi
Lalu apa yang terjadi pad takdir kita berdua?
Mampukah kita bersama?
Atau kau hanya berlalu seperti sebelumnya?

I'd Love to See Your Smile

I'd love to see your smile

Because you give me that happiness that I never thought that it would exist in my life
Because you taught me something new
You introduced me the whole new world
And you taught me about happiness and to be happy
You show me that I deserve to be happy and show off my smile to this world
You respect me as a human, as a girl

So I really hope that you always be happy
As long as you happy then it's enough for me
Because you deserve to be happy
I'd love to see you happy

And whenever I see you, I can't restrain my smile.
And I always act like a totally different girl towards you
I can't even manage myself
Only if I see you

Like you who always have a faith on me, you deserve to have my faith.
You always have my faith ..
You have my pray .. Always.

You and Him

you can't go anywhere
even you wanna run
you can't even walk
you just stay ..
And feeling the pain ..

You can't scream ..
Even your lungs is about to explode
You can't talk ..
Even your brain is full of words
You just keep silent ..
And feeling the pain ..

You can cry
As much as you want to ..
As loud as you want to ..
But your lungs is still want to explode
Your body is still shaking
And you can still feel the pain ..

You can think as hard as you want
When you able to talk, you can talk to everybody ..
But the pain is still stay in your body
You won't find any solution
All you can do is feeling all the pain and keep it inside your body

You can watch him as many as you can
He talk to you whatever he wants
You can happy as much as you can when see and talk to him
But the pain is still stay in your body after he's gone
After your eyes can't find his figure
And the happiness is just gone as fast as he walk away from you

You can be happy whenever he talks to you
You can laugh and smile when you see him
Even your friend said that you looks so happy at that time
But the pain will find you again when he's just staring at you and walk away without saying "Hi"


Pain ..
I'm talking a lot about the pain ..
Pain which you can't heal even you go to the best doctor ..
To your best friends
To every single people in this world ..
Except him ..
But he won't heal it for you ..
Because the pain is when you realize that " He won't love you "
" He is waiting for someone else "
" He'll walk away and stay away from you when realize that you have a feeling for him "
" Every thing and every feeling that you have is just a waste "

The pain makes you can't focus with everything
You lose all your dreams and target ..
You forget about something called " Hope"
You completely lost
And your life is screwing up


Your friends said that you should enjoy your feeling now
because Falling in Love is a gift
But How about my pain?
How can I handle it?
What if my body and my mind can't take it anymore ..
Should I killing my feeling?
And close my heart for forever?
Because every kind of woman and man relationship never goes well in my life
It just scratch my heart

My Dream Employer

When I'm in senior high school in senior year. Many people start to wonder what major that we would take in the university. It also happens to me, I'm thinking and thinking hard about what I wanted to learn in the future, what is my passion, what I wanted to be for my work. But it's quite hard for me to find the answer since I still didn't know what I wanted to and what I'm good at.
And Super Junior give me an inspiration since I can't watch them on stage live because I'm not a rich girl who can buy the ticket so it become a motivation for me to be a promotor of Super Show, to work professionally with them. It become my biggest dream since then. So That's why I chose Communication Science major in my college to help me to reach it. So please guys, help and support me to in this competition and also my dream by liking this photo on facebook.

Click This Link

And please respect it since it's my dream.

The Smell of Rain

I love the smell of rain ..
The smell that comes before rain and when it happens ..
Fresh and calm ..

People said that Virgo can't be relax
Their minds are full of thoughts
Maybe it's true
I never can't relax
I think about everything
Things that work well in my life but mostly about things that go wrong and always try to fix it even its often end up fail

But feel the freshness of rain's makes me feel comfortable
Makes me think about something calm and melancholy without being pressured to fix it. Just enjoy the thoughts
Maybe it the word relax mean to me ..
Thinking and feel it without being pressured and intimidated with the feelings ..